Why am I the way I am. I am extremely sensitive. I felt so deeply hurt for the people that love me the most. I feel it, it doesn’t mean they meant to hurt me. I feel hurt and to stop feeling so bad I ignore it and them or I hide myself inside a shell. And in this state I cannot interact with the world, cannot be alive. Because I am not living the reality, I am not here with you, I am somewhere else, and in this place I feel even worse.