I keep being frustrated and do nothing about it, frustrated about you, or being with you. This feeling is pushing me out, and I can see that you know how I feel. I don’t want you around anymore and this is killing me because I love you and I don’t want to be rude to you. I don’t mean what I say, or do I? I feel a pressure and frustration that I don’t like. I am stressed. When you are close is different, I want you more and more, but it is a bit like a sick feeling. Once I have my space to think I feel I want to be on my own. I don’t want to need you, I don’t want to. I want to be independent. I want myself back.